Happy Birthday, Mama!<3

I fear being a mother, because I mean....who doesn't fear failing at having a humans natural instinct? I think to myself 'will I be the weird one that doesn't know how to treat their children

and totally miss out on 'motherly' instincts'.

I have this huge headache I should really be in bed right now..
I couldn't help but write this though.

Yesterday a series of events happened that really made me contemplate us women, and

I guess the sheer admiration I hold.

Mothers give so much of themselves up for their children.

Honestly...GRASP the idea of the way your mother held you inside of herself for 9 months.

That in itself completely awe's me...the intimacy of you growing inside of another human being, and that we are all just a result of each other, this long chain of intimate moments with that one person we would look at and call 'mom'. But then there's the whole part of birthing you, and your mom and you working together to give you that first breath of life. The way you depended on her to give you nutrition, and how she willingly let you feed off her bosom.

Your bones, your strength, your health...you have to be happy you are here for those very first months...very first years your mother devoted to keeping you alive.

To a mother being in pain, and thinking about what she will feed you tomorrow instead of fending for herself isn't a sacrifice, it runs in her blood, you run in her blood. I think if I had to pin point which demonstration of love really changes me, it would have to be the way a mother loves her child.

There really is nothing greater.

Sigh.

Just.. go give your mom the biggest hug and kiss.

She's the best.


I can't wait for my day.