I'm sorry blogger,

I haven't been on in a while. For those of you who still stalk or visit this page.. Life is going good.
This year is going just right. I plan to get a lot done this 2010. Lets hope that turns out great.

I really gotta start working out though. I must get thinner! I need to set a goal weight to reach by May! Argh. So what should it be? My goal for May??. I've been sick like this whole year.. Haha. But I shall start my crazy workout stage this monday!
oo boy it's on! 

If I could lose 12 pounds in two weeks I can do it again. I just hate when you hit a wall. :p 

Lets hope I stick to my word. It's for my own wellbeing anyway! 

Tomorrow is friday and I have a make up quiz and a quiz to take tomorrow. I haven't even started my study on last weeks class. Ugh. Cramming tomorrow. I must get my sleep!

Well blog, that's what's up with me! What's up with you? 


PS. I reallly missed this blogspot. It feels good to be able to blog. Like actually blog, not tumble. I just feel weird when I try to blog on tumblr it just doesn't feel right. Ohh wells. :)

Night my lovely blogspot!<3

The usual

Goodness gracious, it's been a while. I guess it's not about having the inspiration to write, but having the willingness to write, regardless of how inspired you may be. Practice practice practice.
Anyway, too be honest these past few days have been a little sad for me. Been thinking a lot. About family stuff. sigh. I really do love my family, its just sometimes things get so hard and I snap at them for adding to my problems.. and then I feel horrible after it all.

Idk why I'm typing this. I guess it's cause my parents haven't been home in two days, and the house is in complete silence. And too be honest, I loved it at first, but when I layed my head to sleep.. I kinda missed the chaos I would usually hear before I sleep. I told my sister that it feels so lonely. She agreed. We told each other that we would never live alone in a condo or house. Its just a lot better when you have someone to make noise with I guess.

Its a love hate kind of feeling. Bittersweet. Yes, that is love. <3

Sincerely,

I feel ok today. Not great, not good. Just ok. Sigh, why is everyone so mad in this house? It's like I can't escape it. I'm so tired of the yelling, the threats, everything in this house. Oh God, please help me.

Anyway, The new year has been good. I went bowling yesterday, that was fun. Saw some familiar faces at the party. Its always nice seeing them. They thought I was engaged. My aunt kept telling her friends that Mister and I were engaged. Teehee. She's a funny one. <3

I cleaned today, like super intense scrub the marble floors in high speed. I don't even know how I did it like that. It was crazy. I felt a little better after. Cleaning soothes me.