Wednesday.

Todays weather is actually nice. A little bit of gloom. A little bit of sun. A whole lot of wind. It's relaxing to me.
I finally got my papers so I have my appoinment tomorrow morning. I hope it goes well. If it does then I'm pretty much set for life! So lets pray for the best here. I trust that God will provide.

I'm so ready for all this!

Tuesday.

I woke up really sick.. I thought it couldn't get any worse. I was wrong. Lets just say I got hurt. Really really bad. I fell and now my foot has these huge two bumps on it.. And my toe still hurts. My dad's surgery went well. I praise God for that. I just feel bad cause I can't help him due to my foot, and I don't want to get him sick. So I stayed away.. And went to my moms room. Suddenly as I was getting off the bed my lower back decided to go out on me. I knew it was coming.. That fall was nasty. I then realized I have this huge bruise on my thigh. Sigh.

Being sick while not being able to move is the worst feeling to me. I started crying as my mom rubbed my back with medicine. I just feel so useless today. Everything I wanted to get done today didn't even get touched. I hate when I complain.. Times like these I realize how much I take for granted. All this pain, it's temporary. I'll be able to breathe, walk, run, and even bend over. Some people don't have any of that to look forward to. They're bedridden for the rest of their lives. And some, some don't even complain.. But here I am. I can be such a baby sometimes. I'm so thankful that through bad times, God always shines that ray of light on me.

He truly is my hope, my rock, my all.

Also I'm so thankful for my Mom. She's the best nurse ever. I love her so much.
Oh and I can't forget my Love. Hearing his voice makes me feel alot better.

I am blessed. Thank you, God.<3

Mondays.

I could be out right now with Kester and John, but instead I'm here at home trying to study.
I feel like nothings sticking to me! I don't like doing things on Monday, I just feel like resting today.
Too bad I can't. I have so much to do this week. Finals are tomorrow, and my Papa is like drilling me and saying he won't accept failure. Wow. Come on.

I'm waiting for my financial papers to come in so I can go on with my life. They are probably in the mail right now. Too bad the mail thing is all the way at the end of the street where shady people live. Tomorrow my Papa also gets surgery. So I don't even know if I'll make it to class. I have to drive him around for two weeks cause the Doctor says he's not allowed to drive for that amount of time. I honestly don't see why. It's just tonsils. Hah.

Mama leaves this Sunday right after Easter Cantata, we head to LAX. Kester is coming with cause I don't think I'll be able to drive in LA traffic.. :p

Anyways, I really need to get the paperwork done and get an appointment this week! I hate stressing out.

Lord help me, please.

Sundays.

"Everyday they pass me by,
I can see it in their eyes,
empty people filled with care,
headed who knows where..."

There's something different in the air on Sundays. I love them. My Sundays belong to God. You'll find me at church on Sundays. Whenever those doors are open, I do my best to make it. Why? Because it's the least I can do. We have so much time to do whatever we please, and all God ask for is to be at His house (church) when the doors are open. To honor the sabbath and keep it holy.

It makes me sad inside when I drive by parks, malls, even restaurant on Sunday mornings. You see so many people. . . And I can't help but wonder why. Families are slipping away. You invite people to church and they come up with excuses. " I go every now and then.." "I have to go buy groceries." or, " oh were busy on Sundays cause you know that's our family time." or even better.. " It's our beach day. don't want to pass up the beauty of Sunday." Tah! I mean, come on! It's not like church is all day! I just don't get it. People say they want to go to church, but when they get the chance they don't evening make time for God. It breaks my heart to see where this nation is heading to. Most people only go on Christmas Sunday or Easter Sunday.. that's when you see the most people.. it just shouldn't have to be like that.

We are blessed beyond measure. Blessed by God. We don't deserve it. But even still He gives it to us.. He puts us first, but when it comes time to put Him first, we say no. We pull out our excuses and say, " maybe next time" oh really? I doubt that.
It just makes me sad that most people won't give up 2 hours of their Sunday to worship the God that blesses us every single day. I guess we just thank Him with an IOU or a rain check. Just know, there won't be any excuses in heaven. Everyone will give an account for what they've done, and for what they've failed to do.

I just want to do the best I can be for my Lord. God deserves nothing but my best. Nothing less.
And you know that He deserves your best too.

Question is, will you give it to Him?

Capture.

Why do capture and enrapture rhyme?

Perhaps because when we strive to capture
that which we cannot grasp,
we contemplate the rhapsodies of time.

Family.

I spent the whole day with the Garcias. Met a lot of new family members. They were all so sweet and happy to meet me. I was even told that I'm a good one. A keeper! Ah, I love big families. Especially when everyones super close. It makes me miss my family. I'm glad I got to spend time with them. I feel closer now. :)

I felt like I was already apart of them, it was a great feeling. I can't wait to have my own family. Being around all the little cousins and neices and nephews.. it made me excited. To know that one day it will be my turn! Sooner than it seems. Super excited!!
Lolo & Lola Garcia, they really were the definition of love and marriage. Over 60 years of marriage.. so amazing. I will never forget Lolo.. I just wish I could have known him longer. But now he's with the Lord. No more pain. No more suffering. I will always remember and even pass down what I've learned to my family.

R.I.P. Lolo Garcia.

Mama.

I love my mom. We don't always get along, but we have each others backs. She does her best to understand where I'm coming from. She's always there for me if I need someone to talk to. She tells me what's right and what's wrong. She doesn't always agree with what I do, but she tries her best to support me. Encourages me when I need it most.. though at some times I feel like it's more of pushing, I know it's out of love.

I love talking to her about what I want to do with my life. It's just priceless. I know without a doubt, if my mom could give me the world, she would. She would do anything for me. But what I love the most about her... is that she prays. And when I say that, I mean it. Hours in the morning, she prays. And I know she prays for me and my future life all in God's will of course. I couldn't ask for anything better.

She's a hard worker. She does what she can, and she does it wholeheartedly. She carries a lot on her shoulders, but she does her best to keep a smile on her face. She puts everyone first, and herself last. And people take her kindness as weakness, and takes advantage of her. And sadly, I'm guilty of this at times.
I honestly don't know what I'd do without her. She even tells me that sometimes with a smile. And it's so true. I love her so much, and I'll miss her while she's in the P.I. for a month or so.

I love you, Ma!

The Big Comfy Couch

"I don't believe you can stop at one point and say, 'I feel comfortable here.' I don't want to feel comfortable. I want to see what's out there, what I can reach."
- Mariano Rivera

Everyone wants to be comfortable, but when we become too comfortable; we become too accepting and we lose the thirst for challenge, change, and the drive that takes you to the next level. The same drive that shows you how much better everything can be.

Awake.

I'm awake when I should be sleeping. I just got off the phone with Kester. I just love how we can talk and talk for hours. Now I'm wide awake. I think I'm excited for later today. I finally get to have my tooth finished! Yay. I love my trips to the dentist. I hope this week is a good. On Wednesday, I'm finally gonna meet Kester's whole family! Talk about a lot of people! They're all here for Lolo Garcias funeral. I remember when I first met his parents.. oh boy.. that was scary.. but it turned out great! His dad even called me his future daughterinlaw and took pictures. Good times. I'm kinda nervous to meet more of the others.. but it makes me happy that his aunts, uncles, and cousins want to meet me! Don't you all just love big families?! :)

Today was a good. I missed Meca though! I hope she gets better soon.
Well, I'm tired now so time to sleep. Ill blog again later today. :)

Guess who

I wish you could cover my eyes forever,
so all I ever had to see was the inside of your knuckles,
the rivers in your palms, and I'd always know I was safe and surrounded by beauty.

I just had to express the way Im feeling.. anyways..

Tonight was great. Kester and Kim came over, then we went to San Marcos to go shop. That was fun! Walked around. Stopped by guitarcenter. I always love going there, its like guitar heaven. and the people who go there are just so awesome and friendly, we all just jam together. After that we ate out at ihop, took pics, then we went home.. now I'm here writing all this. I should get some rest now.. big day tomorrow. Gonna go bowl it up on 32nd street tomorrow night. Yeee!

I hope everyone enjoyed their eveningas much as I did. :)

Wherever a flower blooms, hope blooms alongside it.

HELLO, SUNSHINE.
Today is a good day to be alive.

Spring is here. I hear it in the wind, I hear it in the song the birds sing just outside my window. I see it in the sky, I see it in the blooming flowers. I smell it in the air. I feel it on my skin. Pure beauty. I'm excited, even more so for summer. I usually don't like summer, but for some reason I have this feeling that this summer will be one of the best. I can't wait!

My world has a brand new spin.
<3

You get what you need.

I like old things better than new. It seems like older things are more durable. Especially when it comes to cars. Now, the picture to the right.. yes... I really really want that baby. I've always loved baby blue beetles oh and even more so if it's a convertible beetle. Eeeek! Hearts hearts hearts! I definitely wouldn't mind getting one. I wouldn't mind getting any kind of car, as long as it worked. Hah. But I just really want that one in the picture. Sigh.

Sometimes I wish I could get whatever I want when I want it. But I can't. Life's not that easy... infact life isn't easy at all. Well, at least for most it isn't. We all have to work for what we want/need. Mostly for what we need, then comes along the wants. I want a lot of things, and if you're honest with yourself, you do too. But if you're me, I keep it to myself. I don't even bother asking because I know I can't have it. I hate envying others. It's something that I believe everyone struggles with. Including well off people.

In the back of our minds we all want something. Whether it's something new, something old, or someone elses. We see it all the time, people who have everything, but still want more. Or people who wish they had a different family. Different parents, different looks, different relationships, different lifestyle, ETC. We all do it at some point. We envy, also known as covet. Some people do it more than others and get carried away.

Nonetheless, envying others, or things, it's wrong. And we all know it. If you aren't careful you can let it overtake you, and when that happens you become blind to the blessings that you have. And I'm guilty of this. We all get too caught up and forget. We may or may not be well off, either way we should always remember that we are blessed with what we need and sometimes with what we want. We take things for granted. Simple things. Simple things that others, like people from third world countries would die for. So remember that the next time you think you have it bad, cause you don't.

"You can't always get what you want
And if you try sometime you find
You get what you need"

I don't always get what I want, but God ALWAYS provides what I need and even more. Right when I need it.<3

Complacent

Sometime people aren’t complacent. We don’t put our feet up. We don’t sit still. Whatever the game is, we like to win. And once we win, we get a new game. We push ourselves.. It doesn’t matter how much we achieve if you’re a climber, there’s always another mountain. People take pictures of mountain climbers at the top of a mountain. They’re smiling, ecstatic, triumphant. They don’t take pictures along the way cause who wants to remember the rest of it. We push ourselves because we have to, not because we like it. The relentless climb, the pain and anguish of taking it to the next level. Nobody takes pictures of that. Nobody wants to remember. We just wanna remember the view from the top. The breathtaking moment at the edge of the world. That’s what keeps us climbing. And it’s worth the pain. That’s the crazy part. It’s worth anything.

So with that being said, time to push even harder. Not because I like it, but because I have to, I need to. Not for anyone else, but for me. There's a lot that must change in so little time, but through the grace of God, I know I can do it!

Intriguing.

I don’t think I’ve mentioned this to most of the people, but I really love balloons. I remember when my sister gave me a special balloon (Picture above) for my 19th bday @ disneyland. It was perfect, I actually still have it and the light still works! Anyway... balloons... There’s some sort of magic in them that makes them so intriguing. With one in hand, I may think about everything & nothing at the same time. It’s a wonderful feeling— being carefree and ecstatic about .. life. Oh how I miss those days.

I love how we, just like balloons, come in different colors and shapes. We’re all different and of value to a special someone. We all have the potential to create happiness, and once gone, create sadness. Yet, inside of us, we have that same one characteristic that allows us all to become something greater than what we know. We exceed limits. We defy gravity. One small puncture, however, can bring us down; slowly, but surely. Although you might not have been completely torn off from this world, a lifeless balloon is just as useless and pathetic. So with that, I encourage you to stay alert & take care of yourselves. It seems that I become more disappointed with this world everyday. On the other side of the spectrum, this world could not have been more beautiful. God is amazing.

Accessories.

So today I decided to mold some things for someons birthday, Joannes bday. I was going to sew her something, but honestly, I'm too busy to get all that done by tomorrow night. So I just stuck to the molding, it's not as hard. But still hard. Hah. It all takes patience. I molded it into what I wanted, but I didn't bake it yet.. I need to buy some eye hooks so they can be a charm or something. Also I need acrylic paint... Man. So I'm suppose to get that tomorrow with Kester so it can be from the both of us. I like when he helps. :p But now that might now happen tomorrow due to family emergency. So please keep the Garcia family in your prayers.

Anyway, if I can't get what I need tomorrow after practice then I'm just gonna have to work with what I got. Water paints on clay..ehh.. Not the best but I can make it work... I hope. Haha. Tomorrow shall be fun! Childrens Cantata practice.. Yay! But Rocel won't be there to help. :( it's okay though, lets just hope they listen to me! Ha.

Class was okay tonight. I'm so tired. I couldn't really focus, so I think I failed my quiz. Eeh.. But I got my paper back, I got an A! So I'm happy! :)

Now, with all that said, I can hit the hay! Night bloggers.<3

So much to do.

This year is a busy year. It's going by so fast. It's already march, so crazy. Right now I'm just taking a break from studying. So much to study for. Hmm, I need to make up a quiz, study for final exams, get started on some essays, call the base and get details for the youth group thing.. what else? Uh, get Choral books for this on coming childrens cantata. Argh, it's so hard to find decent music for kids nowadays. All this thinking is making my head hurt.

Anyway, my moms leaving next month for the P.I. she'll be gone for a month! Crazy. I'll be the queen of the house. Hahaha. If only my dad were leaving too. Kidding. But yeah, she'll be back May 5th maybe with my kuya.... im excited!! Something tells me it's gonna be thee best. :D

Ayee, I shouldn't boast of tomorrow. Sometimes I get a head of everything. I tend to do that a lot. Well, God is good and I am happy. This week has been a blessing. I love the Rices and the Finneys. Such a blessing. Even though their kid was a handful, I still adore her. So precious.

Lately Ive been writing just doodles and stuff, but I kinda don't like how my hand writing is now.. I feel like I should change it. Make it more neat and stuff.

I think this whole entry is so all over the place, oh well.
Till next time!<3