Day 13 - Someone you wish could forgive you

Dear Someone,
I honestly can say I don't know who you are. There can be more than 1 person. I wouldn't know though. I feel like everyone I have in my life has forgiven me.. but maybe some still have bitter towards me for reasons they only know. And if I knew the reason/reasons I would try to explain myself/make it up to you.. whoever you are. I don't want bad blood with anyone. Even if we aren't close friends. I wish you would just tell me if I've ever offended you. I want to ask you for forgiveness, that's the least I can do. So please, whoever you are, I'm not a hard person to talk to. I like honesty even if it hurts. Bitterness doesn't make you feel better.. coming clean does. :} So here I stand, I'm open if you are.

Sincerely,
Lisa

Help.

I find it really sad when you know someone needs help and so you lend out your hand, for it only to get slapped away.

You needed a lot of help. I was told to help you. I wanted to help you. But it's true what they say..

You can only help those who want to be helped.

Day 12 - The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Dear Satan,
I pretty much hate you. Is that wrong? You've caused me a whole lot of pain and troubles. You screw with my life everyday. And you won't ever stop till I die or till you go to hell. Which ever comes first. Just know you won't ever win. You may get the best of me at times, but I refuse to let you destroy my life ever again. You've come close, but not close enough. I will stand my ground whether you like it or not. I chose to fall in love with Jesus and to live for him, not you. Get over it and get gone.

Sincerely,
Lisa Guerra

Day 11 - A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Dear Grandpa,
I never got to meet you. I've only seen one picture of you once when I was a little girl. I remember one day asking my papa about you and then getting yelled at for such a question. From that day on I never asked about you.. but I always wondered where you were. One day when I was older I was driving with my dad, and he finally started talking to me about you. How you would take all of the boys to get some pop, but they'd sit in the back of the truck or on top. My dad loved sitting there while under the sun with a pop in his hand. He also said you were mean.. and he's probably right. You did a lot of things that hurt him and the rest of the family. One day I found out what actually happened to you and I cried. I just thought you were somewhere in this world, hoping one day to see you. But that dream was crushed when my dad finally told me what happened. Sometimes I imagine it.. I don't know why. It's horrible though. I wonder who would do such a thing. I feel anger even though I don't know you at all. Anger towards the people who took you from all of us and just left you there in that alley, dead and alone. . To this day it's hard for my dad to talk about you. I wish you knew how much he loves you and how much he regrets not being able to make things right with you. And I'm sure you feel the same. I don't know much, but I know enough. Enough to love you. Enough to wish you were still here. I bet we could've been the best of friends. I sometimes get jealous when I see friends who have super close relationships with their grandparents. I wish I had that. So, if I could talk to you I would tell you all of this, and also that I love you despite all the things I've heard. Though I don't know you, I don't even know your name, my heart longs to know more about you cause at times I don't know if its even possible to miss someone you've never even met, but at times I miss you, Grandpa.

Sincerely,
Lisa

Day 10 - Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to

Dear God,
You were the first to pop in my head. Probably because I don't talk to you as much as I'd like/should. I'm guilty. My prayer life should be so much better. You bless me every single day and sometimes I don't even whisper a thank you.. I'm horrible. To even have such a privilege to be able to talk to you is beyond my worth. And yet, at times, I forget. As if it's nothing. And I'm so sorry for that. I was raised better than this. I truly want my spiritual life to grow more and if that's ever gonna happen. Prayer, it's a must. I used to live by that, but I slowly drifted and I'm ashamed for that. But Lord, I'm ready to change that. I'm so grateful that You never once left me or gave me up. You've always been there to carry me when I couldn't carry myself. I owe you my life and so much more.

Prayer is a must. Prayer is a privilege.


Sincerely,
Lisa

Day 9 - Someone you wish you could meet

Dear Tatay,

I've seen pictures and I've tried my best to talk to you over the phone even though you don't understand my english. I've always wanted to meet you. All the stories I hear about how you were a crazy guy who always got the girl. The awesome drummer. The tough fighter hippie man who liked spider rings. I just find you so awesome. I wish I could fly to the Philippines and just give you a kiss&the biggest hug ever. Even though you probably wouldn't recognize me since your memory isn't that well. I love your style, you're always so fresh with your shades and all. I hope one day I'll be able to take pictures with you! Hopefully sometime next year. So please tatay, hold on a little longer. I want to say my proper goodbye. I love you so much. Skyping with you is always a pleasure. <3

Sincerely,Your grand daughter.

Day 8 - Your favorite internet friend.

Dear IZZY,
Oh my oh my, I honestly had to think for a few seconds and then you popped in my head! Izzy, you are awesome. We met through maple story two years ago. You would always do maple videos and I'd be in them! Haha. We would email each other and talk about how you live in some small boring town and how you wish you could be like me. You cracked me up! The stories about you and your mom reminded me of my mom and how she tells me the same things. We don't really email anymore. We just leave random yahoo messages with hearts. We were all about the hearts! "Here's something that will fill your day! <3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333" Hehe. You're such a sweet heart. You never liked the way you looked, and wished you could be "pretty" like me.. oh please. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. And I really hope you see that soon. I think after this I'll go leave you a random fact on YM. Those are always fun. I hope you're doing great in that small town of yours. Someday we should maple again. Maybe in 5 years or so. :p Thanks for all the free stuff. You cool!

Sincerely,
<3333333 Mi-cha!

Tinny music my summer makes.

I heard the ice cream truck that supposedly isn't allowed to drive up my street anymore
today.
And I knew when I heard the ice cream truck that summer is thinking that maybe it
would like to come up my street sometime, if that was what I wanted.
And I thought about it for a little bit, I thought about summer, and I finally decided on my last thought about it and it was this, I don't mind if summer doesn't drive all the way up my street.
It can stop at the corner like always, or, at least like always since years ago, and Ican walk down and buy my ice cream and walk up again and think this the world, or, at least the bit of world that fits in my eyes at once, looks really really nice when I have an ice cream cone in my hand and
the actual ice cream on my tongue.

Day 7 - Ex friend

Dear EX friend,
I met you when I was practically a baby. Our parents made us do the whole "little couple" thing. -.- What is up with people doing that to poor little innocent kids? Haha. Anyway, you were my playmate. I loved going to your house cause you had everything! Not to mention my favorite type of stairways! The ones that swirl up! Oh boy, I loved going up and down those stairs. I remember when we would race cause there were two. I really liked your parents cause they were both Doctors. I think that's why I grew up wanting to be one. Cause they would come home in those white jackets and nice scrubs, had a huge beautiful house, and would help me if I hurt myself.. not to mention how sweet and nice they were. You were just as nice.. sometimes! I remember wanting to be a boy cause of you, cause you would always ditch me when our brothers would come around. So I tried to be a boy and you made me cry cause well.. that didn't turn out too well. >.< You were my first my friend. Best friend. Sadly you had to move, I was so hurt I didn't talk to you for weeks. ( whoever said that kids don't know pain/ don't stress are so wrong.) Until the day before you left when my family came over. I just sat on the stairs and you played with the older kids. Before time was up, we had one last race up and down those pretty stairs. I was so determined to win and beat you into the ground.. and it happened. You fell down the stairs and started crying. I felt bad cause I wanted that in the beginning... but it felt wrong. You said you weren't crying from the fall, but cause you were leaving me your bestie behind. I just stood there until our parents came and told us to say our goodbyes. We hugged and our parents made us cheeky kiss. YEAH YEAH, KODAK MOMENT.. they took a picture out of nowhere. Normally we would make a big deal and attack our parents, but we didn't care this time. As I left we both knew we would never see or hear from each other ever again.. and we were right. Pretty smart for 6 and 7 year olds. To this day I still remember you. Why? Cause you were my first real friend that could talk. Haha. And because of the whole stage I went through about being a boy. I really do hope you and your family are doing great. Wherever you may be. I hope you're involved in church, and that you still love Jesus "more than I do." I wish you well and I hope you're enjoying life as much as I am.

Sincerely,
Little Lisa.

Day 6 - A stranger

Dear Stranger(s),
I see you everyday. I pass you in the halls. I look you in the eyes. Sometimes I even stand right by you. I secretly wonder how you're doing. What you're going through. Where you come from. What you do for fun. And most important, if you know Christ. And before I can even work up the courage to say a word, we look at each other and smile as we part ways. And as I walk I feel sad.. wondering if I'll ever see you again. Knowing that I probably wont. I then start to miss you, stranger(s).

Sincerely,
Another Stranger.

Happy Father's Day!

I love my papa. He's amazing. I don't know what I'd do without him. So much respect for that man. Words can't even explain. I thank God for allowing me to have him as my earthly father. Papa, I love you so much! Thank you for all you've done and for staying with us through out the years. Also for never giving up on me.

Day 5 - My dreams

DEAR DREAMS,
You make me long for night. Sometimes you make me super happy, other times you make me sad. And then there are the scary ones. I love and hate you at the same time. But I'm kinda of confused to as what kind of "dreams" are we talking about here? It can be both ways, my dreams in life, and the dreams I enter while fast asleep. Either way, I can say the same thing to both of them. Happy, sad, scared.. dreams make me feel that way. If you know me, you would know I'm big dreamer. And I honestly believe if you put it in your heart, you will make your dreams come true. It's all up to you really. So dreams, I promise you that one day I'll get you. Don't be too far away. You're right around the corner.... I can see you.

Sincerely,
Dreamer.

Day 4 - Your Sibling

Dear Chuck,
There is so much to say to you. First off, I'm happy that I asked for you to be born. Honestly I don't know how I would've survived without you as my minion. ;P You are awesome. I tell you my problems. You listen, or you tell me to shut up. Either way, you're still there.. cause I follow you when you walk away. Haha. I love how we are to opposite but are close like no other. I love it when you need me. Our missions are the best cause we always succeed. Our random battles in the hallway, and our random jam outs at 2 in the morning. These are things I won't ever forget. You truly are something else. Pure beauty, amazing, oh so talented, and so forth.. you have that all. And any guy would be beyond lucky to have you as his. I admire you for your standards in life. Please don't ever change that. Next year you'll probably be moving away and then going off to college, this makes me sad.. but just know you'll always have a place to crash if you need to. I'll make this short.. Bec, Charlie, Anne, Chuck... whichever.. yes, you are my closest sibling.. but you should also know that you're one of my bestest friends. So thank you for never giving up on me, and for slapping me in the face when I need it. I know you love me.

Sincerely,
Lisa

Day 3 - Your Parents

Dear Ma and Pa,
You guys are something else. I'm so thankful for such parents like you, even though you two are a bit too paranoid. You've worked your butts off for me and the rest of the siblings. Even though yall aren't working right now, you're still sacrificing so much just to stay here in California for me and Bec. Words can't thank you enough. Times are tough, but through this we still have each other. Though we argue and fight, Scream and yell, Laugh and cry... you two still have my back. I'm so blessed to have such great parents that support me in most of the things I do. Not all... but that's life. And as 2011 approach I hope to be able to pay you back for all the hard work. I don't know where I'll be living when you guys move away, but just know that I won't disappoint you. You've raised me well, and I'll carry my last name proudly. I am who I am because of the both of you. So as time flies, and it will, just promise me when were all up and grown that you two will love each other more. Not because of us kids, but for each other. And yes pa, you can come visit me in your RV anytime! Thank you, for everything. I love the both of you. Always always.

Sincerely,
Your Daughter.

Day 2 - Your Crush

Dear Crush,
I don't consider you a crush. You mean more to me than that. But I'm happy to say it still feels as if it is a crush. You know what I mean? The feelings you get when you see your crush, or when you're around them. It's like a rush, a thrill even. You get tongue tied, butterflies start eating up your insides and you can't help but smile. Just being around them is good enough for you. And that's how I still feel to this day. I don't ever want to lose that feeling. And I hope you never lose it as well. So you know what? Forget me saying I don't consider you my crush. I do. You're my crush. A crush of a lifetime. (insert hearts here)


Love always,
Your Crusher. (;

Summer

It's here. I wish I could enjoy it to the fullest. But I can't. I'll be missing out on a lot this summer. And I think it's all hitting me. It makes me sad. At least I get to attend VBS. That should be fun! I really hope the girls I'll be teaching will have a lot of fun, and that I'll be a blessing to them as much as I know they'll be to me.

School is seriously starting to feel heavy. I have too much to do. I need balance, seriously. I wish I could just take a week off. We all do. Oh well, this is life. I must accept it. It's all for my benefit. Just 6 more months..


Ugh, I need my nap.

Day 1 - Your Best Friend

Dear Best Friend(s),

You know who you are. We've been through a whole lot. The three of us. Sadly, we've also drifted in so many ways. 1 of you is already off in college. We promised to stay close and to text or call everyday. And we did keep that promise for a while.. then we slowly just grew apart. But even still, when we do talk its as if we never missed a day. You're there for me when I need you. You make me laugh like no other. Our stupidity together is priceless, not to mention our cooking sessions. I miss you so much. I hope we can get together soon. So that leaves you, the youngest. Man, remember when we hated each other? Oh the awkward days we always seem to have together. We've gotten a whole lot closer this past year. Who ever thought we could get any closer than we were. Guess we were wrong! I'm glad I can trust you and that you trust me. I love how you're honest. And you tell me how it is. I respect you for that. You're gonna leave this year, and to be honest, it makes me sad. I can't help but feel like I'll be replaced/forgotten. Left out basically. And if I did tell you this, we'd just make empty promises saying this and that. But I guess this is life. People always leave. And although it sucks, our lives will still go on with or without each other. I just hope and pray that somehow I'll make the effort to actually keep our friendships strong.

So girls, thank you for these past 6 years. I'll always treasure us. And I will always count you as my bffs! Even if we drift. I wont ever burn our bridge. I love you both.

Sincerely,
Me.

30-day Letter Challenge

I see this everywhere, and I find it interesting. I'm not doing it because everyone else is doing it. I'm doing it because I love writing letters, but I hate how I can't go back and read letters I've written because, well, I don't have them. Duh! But with this challenge, I can look back at these letters and smile, laugh, cry, feel stupid for the way I write now. All that good stuff. So here I go.

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Afternoon naps.

Just a few minutes..
(I tell myself)
the sun wraps me in a blanket
and cements my eyelids
and I have to peel myself off the couch
two hours later.

Deserve.

Remove the word ‘Deserve’ from your vocabulary. Everybody wants to fight tooth & nail to get what they ‘Deserve’. I assure you, if you were to get what you deserve you would spend your life begging and pleading for mercy. Take Grace over what you Deserve, it is far superior.