Last day of the year!

&& I spent it well. With the ones I love, my family, and KESTER. ^o^
We watched movies, and ate, and watch movies, and ate. Yum. Haha.
I'm thankful I made it through this year. God has been more than wonderful to me.

Happy New Years Eve, Blogger!

my oh my

Blogger, what to do what to do?
I finally started using my tumblr, its nice. I won't stop bloggin here, but I'll probably be more focused on tumblr now. I will keep serious things here though. ^o^
I love this spot. Its mine, and it's been here for me through the hardest times, so there's no way I'd turn my back on you.<3

If you'd like to follow me on tumblr, just ask for the url. Or find me. :]

Good day to all!

Problems

I'm glad to say, I have someone to tell it all to. God? Yes, but other than God, I have someone dear to me, Mister, my Sister, and some. I'm so just so thankful they are here for me. I know I can count on them when I need them. <3

I love you all!

Church

Wow, I'm so blessed. Tonight was a long service, but it didn't even feel like it. Time flies when praising the Lord. It was just so wonderful to hear the testimonies of the church family. I love it. It makes you so much more appreciative of what you have, and even what you don't have.

I thank God for my Church, I honestly don't know what I'd do without them. They are family.
I love them! <3


God is so good!

Twas great!

Christmas was great! I actually finished everything I wanted to finish! I never thought I'd see the day!

So Kester came over and he waited for me to get everything together. I took longer than I was supposed to that morning, but oh well. I finished. And I wrapped it up and went to the living room and gave him his gift! I was happy. Hehe. Then he gave me mine, an empty card. I was puzzled. Hah. They all started laughing at me, but then he gave me the gift! An amazing hand made card! AH, I loved it! It was so neat, and filled with love.. and a gift card. ;] I'm thaa really good friend who got that got the gift card! Hehe. If yall read an earlier post you'd understand.

Anywoo, he also got me some other awesomely awesome things, but I don't feel like going in to detail. ;p My sister got me this really cute shirt with what I thought was a rabbit, but turns out.. with the help of my loves eyes, its actually a rat! Haha. Its a cutie.

After all was done we decided to go to my chbfs house! Bada! We brought one of the puppies along to play with her brother Tyro. We hung out there and played Wii boxing. Hah I am goood at that game, but boy its tiring. Laboogie and his friend showed up at the Badas. It was nice seeing his face, we all missed him. But yeah, it was nice spending time with all of them. They are basically family<3

We came back home and just rested until 6:30 that's when Mister had to leave to get to his families party. So he left, I cleaned, and then took pictures with my Char... and since I didn't sleep until 4 that morning I knocked out around 8 pm ;p

Its okay though, cause I feel recharged! I'm ready for the New year!!!

I hope everyone had an amazing Christmas. :]

Merry Christmas, Everyone!

It's really here, guys!

I hope you all have a blessed Christmas with the ones you love. I know I will.

My pies first Christmas, She loves the lights.
<3

Merry Christmas eve!

So it's 2:58 AM right now. Just getting everything together. Christmas Eve was awesome. The mister spent it with me for the first time and stayed till 12 something. We opened presents and took pictures. He gave the puppies their present and they opened it! It was so adorable. Boy, Pie, and Mud were so thankful. It was priceless. Then they went back to bed .after that. Cuties. Their first Christmas.<3

So yeah, I got some sweeet things from my parents and sister. I love them. Clothes are awesome. ^o^ I have yet to see what my Jagiya got me, but I'm sure I'll love it whatever it is. And he didn't open his yet, but I'm sure he'll love it... or I hope he does! If not, then aiish! ;p

I'm so tired right now, but I must do my best to stay awake and finish everything! Today will be even better, I just feel it.

Merry Christmas (Eve), everyone!









No one wants to be alone at Christmas time.

You may say that I'm a dreamer.

So this whole week is packed for me. Its been good though, super fun! Its just that.. I still have a lot to get done, and time is a ticking! I will accomplish though. I know I will. For I am determined. Yes!

Yesterday, I went to North County with my Love and Char. Got my gifts for my CHBF & my Joyce! I gave it to them today. Danielle couldn't wait to open it so she just did it in front of me... and she loved it! I was happy that she did. Then she wrapped it back up so she can open it up on Christmas. Funny girl. I love her. I hope Joyce likes hers. I think it says her. :] Anyway...

Got my gifts at the mall and ran into my buddy Meca and a friend. ;] Mystery guy. Hah. John. After talking to her we went off to get stuff for Kester's friends. He's so generous. I'm sure they will be very thankful. ^o^ Once we left the mall we went back to my place and got my Mom and headed off to Mira Mesa to watch Avatar with my Family from Otay. The 3D Avatar showings were sold out. Bummer, I know. But we were more than satisfied with the regular showing. It was amazing! <3 I loved it, I just wish I was completely there, cause I had a migraine due to chocolate. This is why I hate the stuff, but why must my body crave it from time to time?! Curse you, Chocolate!

Yeah, so I'd go back to watch it in 3D or even 4D if there really is a theater like that. (According to Anthony.. theres one in Poway.) But yeah, the movie was so worth it. It's the only alien movie I'll watch and not get freaked out by ugly looking things, these aliens were beautiful to me.<3 Hehe. I'm glad my family loved it as well. Kester and Brandon, they are something else. I think it's adorable when they are together, it's as if they are siblings. I'm happy that Mister likes spending time with them.

Today was long and cold, but fun. Spent it with Joyce and Clarisa. Watching Movies. :D
And then had family night at church. <3 Loved it.

Last day of caroling for 2009. Let it be great.

Prickle prickle OUCH!

So this week has been a good one. I plan on getting all my Christmas stuff done by Saturday. Time to go into overdrive. Right now I'm just taking a break from sewing something for my secret santa person. I hope they like it, cause its beating my fingers up! At times like these, I wish I had my sewing machine. Oh how I miss you so. Anywoo.


I've been playing Cooking Mama 3, Animal Crossing, and some other game ever since Mister came over on Wednesday. We wrapped gifts together and then he uploaded the games for me cause I was bugging him about it. Teehee. They are so fun!

Tomorrow's Caroling party at Pastors house. Yee! It should be fun.

I guess that's it for now. Back to the needles. >.<

Weekend Update

Well, my weekend was pretty sweet. Saturday was kinda rocky in the morning, Kester came over and we were supposed to go to the parade to support FABBA, but turns out it was all the way on the other side of Escondido, no where near my house, but we decided to drive all the way there. That was pointless cause most of the roads were closed off and people were walking, but we didn't know where to park or anything, so I said forget it and we headed back home. Then we just decided to go to church and invite people to our Cantata, so we did so in the rain. It was fun actually, me and my sister went off on our own and just sang as we walked in the rain and invited people. I'm pretty sure they thought we were strange. Oh well.

After that Mister was waiting for us at church. We cleaned and then he went off to go get his smog. And I went online to pick pictures for this thing were doing, so I ordered my prints and we all went to eat at P&O then we went to walmart to pick up the pics. Yay for walmart, not only a place to get good deals, but a place to gather and run into the ones you love. ;] We ran into the Prodigies and Justin. That was fun. After that we headed back to my place, tired. So we just cozied up in the living room and we took a nap, I had my sisters snuggler. Hah. Mister had all the porkies to keep him warm, it was raining so hard, so he was waiting till it stopped. Until then we just watched some christmas movies<3 Then he was off cause he needed to do his laundry.
That was my Saturday

Sunday was great! Cantata went very well. ^o^ PTL. We sang, we ate, then we were off to the Nursing Homes to sing to the elderly there. :] I didn't even realize that it marked the 12 days of Christmas, so what did my true love give to me on the 12? Sweet tea and some fries! :D We went to McDonald's after we were done. Num num num. Thats where its at. Yup. Just for the sake of not making entry any longer, that was my Sunday.

And right now I'm just uploading all these pictures from Thanksgiving and Cantata, man so many. Hah. But I'm happy cause I got a package filled with these little goodies my godmother makes for me. They are heavenly. <33 Thank you Mama Evalynn . :]

Living on edge.

Wow talk about an exciting morning. >.< Didn't make it to the parade, but its fine cause we got some good laughs about it anyway. ;p And now I sit here on the piano waiting for the Mister to get back, and then were off to go eat and enjoy the rest of our day. :]]<3


I'm singing in the Rain rain rain.

there's zombies in the park

What to do today?

I'm not so sure, but for now I'm off to the Kit Carson park parade by my house. :]]

Have a great Saturday people!

Word Flush:

I feel like my universe is so much bigger than the confinement of these four walls. like i can reach up and tear a piece of sky to give to you. because to me, the sky is perfect. the sky is reliable. the sky is the most amazing and honorable thing in this world. and you deserve that. you make me feel infinite, like i could be the sky. like we're all connected by this endless abyss of blue. and i want to give sky to you. i want to give you the universe, the whole entire thing. i want to give you something beyond these walls and these halls and i feel like i could. i feel like i could look up and see perfection and turn my head to you and nothing would change. because you're perfect.

i'm not even controlling my words, i'm letting go of all thought of thoughts and typing what crosses my mind, and the fact that i said you're perfect came out astounds me. because i never really say that. i never build myself up with exaggerations anymore only to be let down when things change. but the spontaneity of my thoughts and this motion and this waterfall of emotion and words is magic and beauty and there's more truth in thoughtless thoughts than there is in a thought that's been picked clean to be said with the "right" words. but the right words are the ones originally thought of; they're raw and fresh and young and the most honest part of the brain.

i don't care if i'm missing punctuation and capitals and everything that writing is supposed to be. because sometimes raw thoughts are the best writing, and raw thought are too quick to be thought of and analyzed and made "perfect."

sometimes things are perfect in their imperfection.

the sky will storm, but it still remains beautiful.

hurricanes come and go, but there's beauty in everything. there's magic where you make it. and there's love where you can take it.

let's take it on a walk. on a run. let's take it with us and put it in our pockets and carry it around like a favorite photograph. because it's raw. it's real. it's love. it's us.

it's perfect.

Who are we? Who are you? Who am I?

I really need to do this more.

Who will we become? It's weird to think about changing into someone totally different in the future. It's weird to think about the day when I'll look back at when I was just a teenager and it'll feel a world away. Because this world is all I know, and to think that it'll be gone someday is a weird thought.

I read old blog posts, and those feel a world away. In reality, they were just a year or two ago. It's amazing how many things can change in a matter of a year. And to think about how many years I still have to my life is weird; imagine how much could change!

But that leads me to think, who are we? Who are we now? At this very instant, how would you describe yourself? And how do you think the person you are now will develop into the person you will become? How many different worlds do we have? How many times do you look back and feel a world away from where you were?

It's weird to think that the person you were way back then is the same person you are now, just younger; you didn't know all the things you know now, but you were still you. Look back at the way you used to be, look at yourself now, and think about who you might be in just a year, or maybe more.

Never forget where you started, where you came from.
Things change and people go through the motions, but through it all, we always remain ourselves.

I'm excited to see who I'll be as a person and where I'll be in 5 years. ^.^I thank God that I've made it this far.

What a cutie

Best cover ever. Wonderful.

Just something I found.

The greatest relationships

The greatest relationships are the ones you never expected to be in. The ones that swept you off your feet and challenged your ever view. The ones where you found yourself to be a better person because of who you were when he was around. The ones that made you wake up with a smile on your face no matter how corny it was. The ones that made everything right when it was wrong. the ones that caused you physical pain to leave because leaving meant losing a part of yourself.

The greatest relationships are the ones you’ll always remember not because of their length, but because of who you were with. The ones where the memories make you want to laugh when you’re crying. The ones that make you believe that God exists, because no one else could have created someone so amazing. The ones that cause you to change for the better, even if you don’t realize it. the ones where you know you’re being honest with yourself, so much it hurts.

The greatest relationships are the ones where he called you lame and you just rolled your eyes because you knew he was kidding. The ones where you were comfortable around him because you knew he’d love you no matter what. The ones where love seemed to be the only answer. The ones that made you compromise because it was something you knew you wanted to last. The ones where you accepted what he did because you just wanted to see him happy.

The greatest relationships are the ones that changed your life. The ones that made you rethink your future because you knew it’d be better with him. The ones where you felt like your forever had finally appeared. The ones that made you question the ending. The ones that told you to push through the problems because eventually it would be better again. The ones where you broke your heart and his for his good, even when you couldn’t explain without breaking a rule.

The greatest relationships are the ones where you care more about his happiness then you do about your own. The ones where you do what you do for his future, even if it means wrecking your present. The ones where you tell yourself to walk in the opposite direction, because you know there are just some things you can’t do. The ones when you cry not because it’s over, but because you know you lost not only him, but your best friend too.

The greatest relationships are the ones where you’ll thank him for being a part of your life, no matter how short. The ones where you’ll never forget him because he helped shape your view on love. The ones where you’ll always be there for him, whether or not he’ll accept that. The ones where he put up with your junk when he didn’t have to. The ones where your last tribute to him was doing something he never thought you’d do - and loving it.

The greatest relationships are the ones where you’ll always love him, even when he’s forgotten all about you. The ones where you’re changed forever because of him. The ones that you will always smile about because while they were flawed, they were still amazing. The ones where you fought what you knew was going to happen because you couldn’t quite come to terms with losing him. the ones that remind you love lost is better than never having loved at all.

:]

Lets celebrate this lovely, lovely calm weather. ♥



^o^

Sunday

I'm thankful I get another Sunday! Today should be exciting. I know I'll be blessed. Ready for some sanging. ;]

Good day to all!

Caroling

Tonight is the first night of Caroling! Ah, I hope this turns out well. I'm excited.

Its magic

Well, yesterday was a good day. Mister came over and he helped me save all my computers on his "new" passport. ;p It took forever! Like the whole time he was over we were working on my laptop! Finally Tosh, pulled through and allowed us to clean his memory. Now its like Tosh is brand new! Funny thing is, all that time putting all my pictures on Misters little device, wasn't even needed. Hah. We got a good laugh though. I appreciate his help. Anyway, today I cleaned my room, it's not finished yet. It will be by tonight though. I can't to get all the art supplies I need, and then my project will take place. It will be so fun with the help of my Char and Mister! It gets me excited just thinking about it. All these ideas in head just waiting to be spilled onto paper, photos, and onto my walls! I'll be sure to post up the finish product. That will probably be in January. Which is actually pretty soon. Haha.


xanga

I signed into it for the first time in a long time and posted on it.
It’s nice to be back there more often. I kick myself for getting too into blogspot.
Xanga is where my heart belongs. <3

It's the first day of December!



The holidays, the Christmas music, the cold weather, the anticipation for a new year...



The feeling of December is here!


And what better way to welcome it than....
to spend it with mister on our day!

Happy 1st, My Dear!