To me the book was well worth reading. It really will leave you thinking about all the little things that you say or do to others. It's true, you don’t know what goes on in anyone’s life but your own. And when you mess with one part of a person’s life, you’re not messing with just that part. Unfortunately, you can’t be that precise and selective. When you mess with one part of a person’s life, you’re messing with their entire life. Everything really does affects everything.
All of us feel alone, scrutinized, and unhappy with ourselves at some point in our lives. For people with depression, those feelings can seem overwhelming and even painful. Some of us, like Hannah (the girl who ended her life in the book), blame others for why we are unhappy. Others of us, like Hannah, blame ourselves for why we are unhappy- we don't like how we look, how we appear to others, etc.
The key is to have hope, to find a passion, to have patience, and to look outside yourself.To me she just gave up. She even said so on the tapes she left behind. Sure, it's easy to die- a few too many pills and you don't have to worry what you look like anymore, what people think of you anymore, or feel sad anymore. But, with those few too many pills, you also terminated the one chance, the ONE CHANCE, you have at experiencing life. It may feel like there's no way out, no reason to live, no desire to live, and that no one would care, but that is a short term view of life.
The wrong view. You may feel like there's no way out, like you''ve been in this tunnel holding your breath waiting for the tunnel to end so you can finally breath that sweet air& see the beauty around you, but you feel it won't come, that you won't make it, that you just can't hold on any longer, that there's no longer a reason, and if you were to let go, to give up, no one would even care. WRONG!
I do sympathize with Hannah's feelings of hopelessness and her peers' faults. She could not muster the patience that would eventually have helped her. I wish she just waited a little longer, yeah, I know it's just a book, but it saddens me cause things like this do happen. She committed a short-term action for a long-term situation- a very long-term situation- her LIFE.
You only get one life. One chance to live. It really is up to you what you want to do with it, and maybe you don't know what to do with it, but you're obviously on this earth for a reason. A reason only God knows. Don't throw it away one afternoon when you've been feeling lousy. People fight depression for years, and the one's who come out of it are truly grateful.
Hannah, she wanted everything and nothing at the same time.
I don't know. I can't really get it. But I get this, Hannah Baker gave up.
The sad thing is when people give up on something they've been fighting to hold onto for so long.
"A lot of you cared, just not enough."
Those words have been stuck to me ever since I read them in the book.
I'm guilty, of not caring enough. I know I am. But I want that to change. I want to be the light I'm suppose to be. The light God wants me to be. And in order for that, I need to be broken and stay broke. In my xanga, I posted something along the lines of, "This year I will care more, it doesn't hurt to care a little bit more" But really, now that I think about it, in some ways it does. Especially when the person you're caring for doesn't want it. But you know what I've learned a lot this year? Care even more, don't give up. Cause I can promise you this, life is precious, and well worth fighting for. I thank God that I never gave up, as much as I wanted to, I never gave up, why? Because God, Himself, never once gave up on me.
Please, keep on keeping on. Never give up! Keep up the fight. In the end, everything does matter.
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