Another summer gone....

If there was anything I could give, I wouldn’t spare a thing… and simply give it all. But somehow things seem to change as our brains age, and soon we become greedy; even with love. And no matter how badly I want to say that no matter how deep my wrinkles get, I always want to be the way I am today….not become jaded and always love this fully. I fear that life will take it’s toll on me like it tends to do, and I’ll look at my beloved and ask ‘where did it all go?’.

But I'll do my best from here out, so I'll never have to ask that question.
Summer is practically over. And yes, I'm still here. I wanted so badly to go off to WCBC this fall, but I guess it's just not going to happen right now. Maybe it's just not God's timing for me. Who really knows? I sure don't. I get sad when people ask me if I'm leaving or when I'm going there.. and my answer is once again "No.." or "I don't know.."

I wish Bible college wasn't so much. That my family could afford it, but we all know that right now times are hard. Especially with my parents not working. I don't want to be a burden. That's something my Dad understands, my Mom... that's another story to tell.

So for everyone who is wondering why I'm not going this fall.. it's because I just can't afford it. It's not cause I don't want to go. I had a talk with my Dad, and he told me as much as he wants to send me there this fall it's just not possible. And on top of that my Kuya is graduating next year from the PI, and so he still has to worry about buying tickets for my Mom to go there to see him graduate from college and then bring both of them back. Maybe even my grandpa. And it's hard cause no one is working. I don't even know how we've made it this far. I guess it's all by God's grace. And I understand. I told him about the 1 year Bible and how I really just want to do that, and I could actually just take it online from WCBC, and he's up for it. I thought he would say no.. but he actually was happy to hear that.

So here's where I'm head..
I'm getting a job. I need to save up, and I want to help my parents.
I told my dad how I want to train to become a dental assistant.
Maybe in January I'll start my one year Bible online.
And so I'm working all these things out.

I'm excited though! It's hectic, but over all exciting! I'm moving on and up. Making something out of me. So that someday I can provide for my family when the time comes.

I'm just gonna keep on trusting in my Lord. I may not have what I want, but I have what I need. He provides just enough.


You have to keep moving, because if you are standing still, everything around you changes, but if you are moving, you are changing everything.